I have been doing a lot. Working a lot, and when I’m not working, practicing or otherwise preparing for auditions, one after another. Boom boom boom. I love it, but I’ve been feeling tired lately. Not just tired like I need to get more sleep- I think weary is the right word.

Fear not, for I have been here before! And returned again with renewed vigor. But for now I am trying to be kind to myself and appreciate my accomplishments.

The audition process is grueling. I have poured my heart and soul (and dollars) into preparing auditions with few external rewards. I get frustrated because I wish I had more to show for the 20 professional auditions I’ve done. All I have on my resume is one measly line that says “Tucson Symphony 2nd Flute audition- Semi-finalist.” Better than nothing, but not that impressive!

On the other hand, I know for myself that I have matured leaps and bounds since my first audition in 2014. I also have a much clearer idea of the expectation at a professional audition, even if I can’t perform consistently at that level (yet).

I am trying to sort through these feelings. Even though I don’t really feel like practicing, I have an audition next week and another two weeks after that, so I’m not about to take a break. Pressure is an excellent motivator for me.

I’m hoping to share a genuine but positive account of the journey to becoming an orchestral flutist. I’m not an expert at winning, but I am very familiar with the audition process. Let me know if you have any questions I can answer in the comments or through the contact form.